Thursday, September 29, 2005

Deadlines... dunno about those things. I need them of course. Desperately.

Today is the 29th of September. Of course I am over a month late for my original EARLY deadline for Slamdance. Currently I am waiting to hear back from a local dealer who has a copy of necessary software on the way (dammit I just realized I left my phone at home) in order to do a master sound mix for the movie.

The film will be screened as part of indie memphis (I hope) and then who knows? Maybe a fundraiser screening? Perhaps there will not be a need for anymore entries after that, or perhaps I will have more to say in January and February... who knows. That's the funny thing about films, you just never know whats going to happen. Unless, your BIG TIME and then you know you only have to have a huge first weekend and then kick back and rely on the DVD sales.

I saw The History of Violence last night. I don't think it was a bad movie, I just hated it. It had only a few things in it which I would classify as worthy of my attention. I also realized something's in there... I will expound on them later. And by later I mean 2006.

Monday, August 01, 2005

The screening is complete. It was really what I needed. That said, as the movie ended, before the lights turned on, I was really feeling the old expression... "deer in headlights". It's been a long time since I put something out there that was so personal, and it felt quite scary to show it to so many people before I am 100% happy with it. But, I needed to be scared... I needed to show it to people at 70% in order to get it to 100%. That's me. That's how I work.

So, what's next? I will make changes this week, and then into post hopefully by next week. Still, August 29th is my deadline.

:)

B.

Friday, July 29, 2005

I have chosen to try and put out to tape first. The first two times there were little glitches in the first five minutes, so now I am restarting the computer and opening Final Cut Pro without any other programs running, and we'll see if that helps. I cannot really live under these conditions on a regular basis.

:)
9 hours later. A little less than 3 hours of a sleep. I have a few additions to make, and then to burn a DVD, or if that takes too long just put it straight out to tape. It's funny what I stress out over. A harddrive collapses and I hardly bat an eye, but I spend two hours trying to decide whether to include one 30 second scene. Ugh.

Thursday, July 28, 2005

It is almost 1 am. In 19 hours I will show a cut of D & S to the first audience of any size.

I had a bit of a setback today when one of the three firewire drives I have been keeping media on for D & S collapsed. It is an old drive, and I was wise enough (surprisingly) to back up my project with the media manage tool about a week ago. So, for the most part I was able to pull all the missing clips over from that timeline into my current timeline. I did however lose one scene which I had just added in the last few days, and a number of hours of rearranging existing scenes. Ahhhhh.... you can't beat the dog that bites the hand that feeds... technology (the dog)... me(the hand)...

Saturday, July 23, 2005

I will be in touch with everyone, but for those who don't know there is a small (closed) screening of A cut of Dollars and Signs this week. It is to prepare for submissions to festivals and give me the opportunity to watch it with an audience.

Saturday, July 16, 2005

The great lesson of life has to be how to live in the moment, because only living in the moment can protect you from ALL mental pain and suffering associated with aging. I mean, by "living in the moment", being present with your actions. I used to get mad at Mary when she was always telling me to be present. I was like,damnit, sometimes I DON'T WANT to be present. So leave me alone. Now, here I am so many years later considering how it can really save me from the most unneccessary sort of suffering. That is the suffering which comes from hypothesing. So instead of letting my mind run wild to thoughts of the film or girls or family, I can simply focus on the measuring cup I am using to see how much water I need to put in the pot to boil the macaroni... and everything becomes more dealable withable. Right?

Another way to look at is, to live as insider. Sometime I get too far outside myself, so I have to do something to get back into myself. So that could be another lesson for me, how to stay inside myself. I think rituals may help me with this, cooking, jump rope, something of that sort.

You see where my head is at. This was the journal I had easiest access to, and I just wanted to document these thoughts as they occurred.

Truly, I won't speak about this stuff again, movies and stuff from here on out, promise...

B.
An anthem should be a __________ which one can believe in without reservation. So what happens when something you believe in that much dies?

Thursday, July 07, 2005

We've got three days of shooting scheduled to fill in some structural holes and apply some touch ups to what we've already got. We have been struggling with the structure of the film, for many weeks (months?) now, and its look we are getting to a point where its not going to change too much more... somethings added, some subtracted, but the core remains the same.

That means word of a screening is pending, and just so I follow through on my word, I want everyone to know Denny has been given his month warning and that it was a few days ago.